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OhMiGod! OhMiGod! OhMiGod!

{ August 12, 2008 @ 6:49 pm } · { Obsessions, Random }
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Whew… I write this with a lack of air in my lungs, the rosiest cheeks I’ve featured (possibly) ever and a grand smile! I understand that Myspace allows many people – everyone – to interact with celebrities, but I just… I COULD DIE!

So… Cymbria and I have a mild full blown obsession with Beverly Hills 90210 (not this 2.0 bs, the old stuff)! As of late, we’ve discovered Steve Sanders, the new love of both of our lives. He just… the character is such an amazing guy but always seems to get the short end of the stick! I mean, Kelly left him, he almost got kicked out of school, he went through all of that effort and emotional strain only to find out that his birth parents passed away, then he ends up with a transvestite, then he ends up with Claire! I mean… talk about not getting a break!
One episode, while we were paying very close attention, we were delighted to discover that Ian Ziering was credited with writing – in some way. This BLEW OUR MINDS! I immediately logged onto my myspace and messaged him with our newly discovered love.
Now, I don’t know much about myspace and I haven’t been on it very long… but, He freaking sent us a message back! Like OMIGOD!OMIGOD!OMIGOD! It wasn’t much, but it was so Steve – so Ian – that we were in giggle-shock for… well, I’m still not done!! Here is the message he sent us back:
Thats very sweet ladies. Thank you.
IZ

I can imagine him looking at us and saying that very line… it’s too amazing for words. Now, I also realize that it’s entirely possible that his manager runs his site and he didn’t even get to see our message and BLAH BLAH BLAH, but I don’t care! Furthermore, anyone who would argue that point any further just can’t stand having others happy – ecstatic!

The Fear

{ August 11, 2008 @ 5:50 pm } · { At Work, Random }
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Wow. It feels like just yesterday my Mom drove me out here and took me to my interview at La Senza. (Within a week I knew that that was just NOT going to work.) Soon after, I decided to join my roommate at Matrix as an office assistant. As odd and lame as it sounds… this job has been a saving grace during my stay in Calgary. I’ve learned how to fit in, in an office environment and I feel as though I’ve taught several of the people here that looks can be deceiving. Just because my hair is two different colours and I have several piercings, does not mean that I’m an outlaw or an unintelligent child - it simply means that I have chosen to present myself in ways that differ from the norm. One of the biggest perks of this job, has been meeting someone who I predict to be a lifelong friend. She too, looked past my age and exterior to treat me like a human being as opposed to a bratty teenager (a claim to which I can’t entirely refute). She has taught me about relationships (of all kinds), religion, psychosis and most of all, myself. I can never say ‘Thank You’ enough, but I don’t think I’ll ever stop trying.

Being in Calgary has taught me a lot about the world and about the people inhabiting our planet. Coming from a small town, it’s easy to feel as if you’re the star of your very own “Truman Show”; what I mean, is that it’s very easy to feel singled out. Whereas Calgary is so big that people hardly give you the time of day! As odd as it sounds, it can be quite refreshing to walk around a busy area and not have roaming eyes meet your own. It’s nice to know that people have better things to do than judge at a first hand glance and worry about microscopic gossip details.

With this new (more) relaxed sense of self, I met my new favourite person: Ashley Wright. He found me on Nexopia and we started talking about music. From there, we went to the bar, where (towards the end of the night) he got up the courage and kissed me while we were dancing. The past 8.5 months have been a dream! Of course, we’ve fought, argued, cried and screamed… but it always ends in hugs and kisses! He is the most calm, rational, shy person I have ever met and I fear losing him more than anything on this planet. (Ok, maybe there are a few people/things that rank slightly above him, but he is DEFINITELY top 5!) We’re destined for long-distance, which never gets rave reviews, but he’s worth it to me.

Which brings me to ‘The Fear’… I am so scared to move back. School, old friends, new/old living arrangements, bars, lack of cash, long-distance relationship… these are all in my immediate future and most of them are entirely new experiences for me. They say not to fear change - which I generally don’t – but how am I supposed to stay sane when I’ll feel as though half of me is gone? I know, I know… I can’t live for my boyfriend and 8.5 months really isn’t very long! It’s just that I’ve never met anyone like him and I’ve never heard of a relationship quite like ours… for example, we’re both 18 and we’ve been living together for 3 or 4 months and now we probably won’t see each other until Christmas!  

*Sigh* I suppose that my fear is rational, normal even. I even know that I will get over it and that school is going to be a blast! I guess for the next two weeks I shall try to harness my nervous energy into excitement and adrenaline… After all, who knows what the future will bring me?

“Jacob, my Jacob!”

{ July 30, 2008 @ 11:04 pm } · { Obsessions, Random }
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A wise man (my brother) once told me, “If someone ends up not liking you, chances are that somewhere down the road, you wouldn’t have liked them.”

What if Twilight had the same characters, but a different sequence of events? What if Bella had already been with Jacob and knew that yes, he would have left her as well?! If she would have known that she and Jacob could love each other without the physical (because they already crossed that line), then Bella would have drove away in the sunset – with a smile. Sure, Jacob and Edward would still vie for her time and her love, but Bella wouldn’t have any qualms or doubts of her decision to marry Edward because she would already know. Sure, the black haired children were cute, but how happy were they? Ok… so in the book they would have been happy. It’s also possible that Bella and Edward won’t get married… We’ll have to see when Breaking Dawn comes out (SATURDAY)!

Fortunately for me, I did date my Jacob. He’s not a werewolf, but he’s a pretty good friend. I’m pretty sure that we both still love each other, but for me it’s more of a friend love. On the other hand, my Edward has every little bit of my heart! Yet again, he’s not a vampire, but he’ll do – quite nicely, in fact. It’s very interesting… If I would have read this series when it first came out, I would have sworn that Jacob was Edward. I would have sworn that our love would last forever and that he would always be there for me. It turns out that sometimes the Bellas can’t forgive the Edwards for leaving, and sometimes she’s not supposed to. I guess it goes to show that you never know when there’s an Edward lurking around the corner, and you know even less if that Edward will turn into Your Jacob.

Why won’t it stop?

{ July 29, 2008 @ 3:15 pm } · { Obsessions, Random }
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I’m less than 200 pages from the end of Eclipse. This should excite me, but it doesn’t. I dread the end of this book almost as much as I truly dread the release of Breaking Dawn! Of course I want to read them, they’ve become my whole life! But why do they have to end? Why do I have to wake up without Edward (or Jacob) staring back at me?

I think what really bothers me is that I honestly feel happier reading these books than living my life. Is that as messed up as it sounds? I love my boyfriend, but I want my Edward. Is there a difference? I have no idea. I wish I knew what to feel. I wish for some kind of release, but maybe these books are my release. Maybe, these books are opening my eyes to true happiness. Maybe reading these books will encourage me to find/produce true happiness in my own life!!

Then again, maybe I’ll use my History Degree to become an anthropologist and spend the rest of my life searching for vampires… named Edward *sigh*.